The Path of the Wind

As you might have read in one of my previous blogs, I have considered life to be to “meaningfully meaningless,” and sometimes I become depressed by such a belief. I wonder around thinking of reason as to do much of anything, and I end up spending my time on activities which merely use or waste my time. In these times I am often alone, as I often am, and I wonder about why I am alone. The other day I considered it was karma; I have karmic aloneness. I thought, I owe it to my self to be alone rather than seek company. That wears off easily.

Then today I took a bathroom break from watching the move The Duets and I thought, I have no real material wealth or sentimental wealth, and I think “most” want one or both of these qualities in someone in which they spent their time, romantically or otherwise. I thought, perhaps I have not acquired material or sentimental wealth because I don’t want to be seen or used as a disposable commodity i.e. I am only desired company when I have the “appropriate’ material or emotion the other needs. However, if I don’t have material things or sentimentality I will never be used and/or then disposed of. This is a good way to insure aloneness.

Then I realized there was a time when I had both, material and sentimental wealth. When I did I was “in love”. And in my “disposal” I became jaded, angry, and diminished, among other things. Then I realized, I can’t clam up or resent anyone for “disposing” of my once my giving is no longer useful. Just as I have limited life, my giving does as well. It runs its course. But can I accept that?

Then I remembered Ram Dass saying, “All you can do is throw your bread upon the water.” There is the image of fluffy bread hitting the surface of the natural water and in moments the water is absorbed into the bread as it becomes uneatable.
I then decided to read the source of Ram Dass’s quotation, the Bible.

Ecclesiastes 11
1 Cast your bread upon the waters,
for after many days you will find it again.
6 Sow your seed in the morning,
and at evening let not your hands be idle,
for you do not know which will succeed,
whether this or that,
or whether both will do equally well.
7 Light is sweet,
and it pleases the eyes to see the sun.
8 However many years a man may live,
let him enjoy them all.
But let him remember the days of darkness,
for they will be many.
Everything to come is meaningless.

Meaningless. Really?
What is to live for if even the Bible says “Everything to come is meaningless [and is a chasing after the wind.”?

Ecclesiastes writes,
9 Be happy, young man, while you are young,
and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth.
Follow the ways of your heart…

And then as I we live happily, and follow our hearts, we “cast our bread upon the water,” and “There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven,” and we “do not know the path of the wind,” and even though there is a time and a season for chasing the wind, I suppose as we cast our bread the wind will take it where it will, and perhaps in many days we will find it again.

A man reaps what he sows…. 9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. (GALATIANS 6: 7-9)