Dim Illumination

Last night I watched the movie "Adaptation" with a girl, who is a friend of mine. She left my place at about 11pm. When she left I began to think about what I wanted to do until I went to bed. I sat in front of my computer, flipping back and forth between websites. I thought about reading a book. I turned off the light to my room, and without changing from my day's clothes, I crawled into bed. Very shortly afterward I fell asleep.
It is now 9:30 am. I am in the same clothes I wore yesterday and slept in, I am still in the same chair I was in last night, and mindlessly surfing the internet. Only now I am writing a blog about the mundanity of my life.
You (the reader) and I (the writer) are now lead to the present moment (only the present moment will be no longer "my present moment" when you read this).

My room is dark with a light blue glow from the morning shadowed light bending around the objects between my bedroom and the sun. The funny thing is even though the sun is low in the sky, at high noon my bedroom will not be much more light than it is now. Why is that funny? I draw humor from it because I am amused by the fact that the universe can shift, the earth is rotating, and in many (or most) places in the world the earth's rotation causes a drastic shift in how much light is received and perceived. These places become illuminated by the earth's rotation. Despite my bedroom becoming pitch black at night and slightly more illuminate during the day, there is not a drastic shift in the amount of light that enters my bedroom.

Just as I lulled last night, thinking about what to do; I wake this morning in a similar state. (I have plenty of things to do...and not all I want to do right now, and some I don't even like thinking about doing.) Yet, to use the metaphor of my bedroom's positional capacity to receive the illuminate qualities of the sun's relationship to the earth's rotation, at times I also position myself in such a way I limit my capacity to receive the illuminating qualities of the sun's relationship with the earth's rotation.

At moments I dim my ability to be illuminated. I obscure my mind and senses causing myself to not "lighten up." It is not so much I become serious, but lethargic, hence my position limits by capacity to receive illumination. However, this is of course more disposition-al than positional. And at times our disposition affects our position.

It is now 10am.
(I intend to stop writing without a "conclusion". So rather than feeling like the writing is unresolved, I encourage you to feel the writing is open-ended.)